Before I say this I have to say a few things about myself because I’m tired of people assuming things about me that are not true. I am 18, female, and bi-racial (black/white). I was raised by my black father in a black household. As a child my black step sisters teased and taunted me because I am ‘white’. Neither them nor their friends would play with a ‘white girl’. My grandmother never liked that my father had a baby with a white woman. She told my mother this every day when my parents were together. She told me this everyday after that. She said I was ‘too white’ or if I did something she didn’t like she, to this day, will tell me ‘It’s the white in you’.
Only rarely have I experience racism towards my other half. It happens, don’t get me wrong. Mostly it’s small, some random bigot throwing words trying to hurt me. But it doesn’t happen too often because even if people are prejudiced they mostly keep quiet about it.
All of these things are racism that happens on a personal level. None of it is institutional. I told you all this because some people seem to think that personal racism doesn’t exist, or at least, not when it’s directed toward white people. You are wrong. Now I want you to think good and hard about all of the times someone has put you down because of your color/race/ethnicity. It hurts doesn’t it? It makes you feel like shit because that person or group of persons hates you, they really hate you, because of something you have no control over. Think about all of the times you were excluded from the group because of your race/ethnicity/color. Did you cry about it at night? I know I did. Did you hate yourself? I did.
Racism has three definitions, according to Dictionary.com: